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Friday, 22 January 2016
Saturday, 13 June 2015
I am taking a sabbatical...
I am finding it difficult to keep up with this blog mainly due to the fact that my MA blog is taking precedence. So this one is either neglected and/or repetitive, also I am doing very little else apart from my MA that I can write about!
Therefore I have decided that until I complete my MA I must give this one a rest. I shall return in November 2016, meanwhile PLEASE follow my 'State of Flux' blog... also I would appreciate ANY comments AT ALL.
Thank you so much for reading and I shall see you on the other side :-)
Daphne's Glove (reverse) |
Sunday, 3 May 2015
About Chernobyl - copied and pasted from me to me...
I can't decide whether to have this AND my MA blog running or combine the two, what does anyone think?
For now I'm copying and pasting the post I've just written about my Chernobyl trip from my MA blog!
Some
said 'brave', some couldn't understand why we would even wish to go
there, some were envious…we (me, my partner, my 2 x 21 year old
daughters and one boyfriend - I was very impressed they all desperately wanted to come) were excited and really had no idea what to expect.
Itinerary:
DAY 1:
Oh, there are no toilets in Chernobyl/Pripyat that you can actually use, only bushes (!) so be prepared to wait up to 6 hours if you're like me, then also be prepared for the most awful toilet ever which is located at the checkpoint... not sure it was better than a bush to be honest.
DAY 2:
I am now desperate to return and hopefully this time next year I will. I found out so much information, one thing I hadn't realised was that a second, more powerful explosion was only very narrowly avoided, one which would have wiped out the whole of Europe -completely. We were so unaware. And 'Tens of thousands of Soviet citizens filed into Chernobyl to help, considering it their patriotic duty; all were exposed to dangerous levels of radiation with no warning from the government.' And did you also realise that the Chernobyl disaster was instigation for Glasnost and the fall of the USSR. It truly did change the world in many ways. 'According to Gorbachev, the Chernobyl explosion was a turning point that “opened the possibility of much greater freedom of expression, to the point that the system as we knew it could no longer continue.”
For now I'm copying and pasting the post I've just written about my Chernobyl trip from my MA blog!
Hotel in Pripyat Plaza |
Personally
and ostensibly it was for my MA research (though no excuse needed) and I
was looking forward to meeting the re-settlers and to discover their
reasons for choosing to go back and live on the edge of the exclusion
zone which is still a very dangerous place to live due to the invisible
enemy 'radiation poisoning'. It has been said that the longevity of the
re-settlers lives is due to their quality of life and happiness in
being 'home' which negates the effects of the radiation. The dangers of
which is more preferable to them than living in a city's high-rise away
from their farms and the countryside.
However,
after my visit, I realised there were so many other aspects regarding
the 'Chernobyl issue' that I couldn't confine my interest to just the
re-settlers and I have reverted to my original thoughts about dark
tourism, collective trauma and collective memory, then overarching or
underpinning this, the 'correctness' of interpreting such unspeakable,
atrocities and heinous issues via an aesthetic means. (N.B. I may be visiting Auschwitz later this year).
Ivan (Mikhail) Ivanovitch, Security (!) and Ivan's house |
Me and a happy Ivan |
The
trip itself was mesmerising (for want of a better word) from start to
finish. There were days either side spent in Kiev and an airbnb
apartment which were fantastic, although kind of 70's, and unbelievably
cheap.
Back to the 2 days spent in Chernobyl. Radiation dose expected equivalent = one hospital x-ray.
We were with Chernobylwel.com
(fantastic!) - a tour, only/easiest way to get in, and of a very mixed
group, 17 persons and a guide. There were other families and some
couples, some groups of friends and a few people travelling alone which
was a very nice mix. People from USA, Finland, Germany, Austria, Spain,
Sweden, UK and Switzerland at least, which I loved and people of all
ages 18 -70.
We
weren't quite sure exactly where we were going and in what order but
this was where we went, in order (I think!) This was after we checked in
at the hotel, in CHERNOBYL, within the 30km exclusion zone,
which extends on the north side into Belarus, Russia. We have stayed in
much worse Travelodges in the UK. The food was, shall we say,
interesting - plain and typical Ukrainian food, and the blob of tomato
sauce on the side of plain pasta or rice we found quite amusing. Every
meal was a set menu (all inclusive :-) and we were all served at the
same time, it reminded me of school trips abroad years ago.
On the minibus on the way to the power plant + Laura |
Itinerary:
DAY 1:
Abandoned house in Chernobyl town |
- Chernobyl Town: The Angel of Death monument/memorial
- Rusting boats - docks (quickly & from a distance)
- Robots (used in the clean up operation)
- (small) Kindergarten
- Cooling towers of unfinished reactor 5 & 6, due for opening in 1988 for Reactors 5 and 6
- Chernobyl nuclear power plant
- Reactor number 4 - viewing platform and VERY close
- Fireman memorial
- Bridge & giant catfish
- Reactor number 4 & Memorial
- New sarcophagus ('safe' distance)
- Pripyat ''Ghost City'': (inhabitants were given two hours notice to evacuate, almost two days after the explosion - already too late)
- Cafe
- Prometheus cinema
- Local Council Admin Building
- Pripyat Plaza-
- Polesie Hotel
- Palace of Culture: "Energetik"
- Amusement park
- Soccer stadium - Stadium Avangard
- Middle/Grammar school
- Swimming pool (in use by the liquidators and other people working in the Zone up until 1996)
- Tower block (roof of)
Oh, there are no toilets in Chernobyl/Pripyat that you can actually use, only bushes (!) so be prepared to wait up to 6 hours if you're like me, then also be prepared for the most awful toilet ever which is located at the checkpoint... not sure it was better than a bush to be honest.
Radiation detectors going in and out of the exclusion zone |
- Chernobyl Zoo (I would say small farm or pets corner)
- Bridge of Death; where people flocked to watch the flames of the explosion and consequently received lethal doses of radiation. I think if it had happened at Hartlepool, the people of Billingham would have probably done the same. Also, there were people travelling on a train going under the bridge on their way to Moscow at the time of the explosion who also received very high dosage of radiation, an extreme case of wrong place, wrong time.
- Pripyat: Hospital, one of my favourite places, very emotional and evocative.
- Combined School (collapsed in April 2013- the snow that falls in the winter has caused most of the damage to the city, I think soon it will all possibly be too destructed to visit)
- Greenhouse
- Telephone exchange?
- Jupiter Factory (could have stayed here all day)
- Police station and cells with exercise yard
- Old Fire Station (with garage), all the men who worked here died.
- Kindergarten 2 ( a bigger one)
- Open air military museum (possibly, it was somewhere with trucks)
- Meeting local inhabitants in the Resettlement zone (unbelievable and great for my research) I have recorded an interview but can't get it off my phone as yet.
- Late lunch at power station (an experience, I wouldn't like to eat there every day - rumour has it it's always exactly the same) - there are still workers building the new (overdue) sarcophagus which will protect the world from the radiation that is still being emitted and possibly escaping as we speak through the holes in the old one.
- Vehicle graveyard - Chernobyl (possibly through the red forest - I wasn't even sure where we were at the time)
Swimming Pool, Pripyat |
Gymnasium, Pripyat |
Pripyat, can't remember which building it was |
I am now desperate to return and hopefully this time next year I will. I found out so much information, one thing I hadn't realised was that a second, more powerful explosion was only very narrowly avoided, one which would have wiped out the whole of Europe -completely. We were so unaware. And 'Tens of thousands of Soviet citizens filed into Chernobyl to help, considering it their patriotic duty; all were exposed to dangerous levels of radiation with no warning from the government.' And did you also realise that the Chernobyl disaster was instigation for Glasnost and the fall of the USSR. It truly did change the world in many ways. 'According to Gorbachev, the Chernobyl explosion was a turning point that “opened the possibility of much greater freedom of expression, to the point that the system as we knew it could no longer continue.”
An overview of the disaster and situation is here.
The
whole experience was like NOTHING I have ever experienced before. The
pictures you see on the internet give NO indication of the feeling you
get by being there. It is truly amazing, I have never seen
anything/anywhere like it in my life… it is the most unbelievable,
disconcerting, silent, strangely beautiful place I believe I will ever
see.
I
still haven't managed to work my way through all my photographs so
these are just a very small selection of the first lot- it is SO difficult to give a good indication of the whole trip. I will publish a couple of albums on my Facebook page as soon as possible.Men working on the new sarcophagus |
Housing block in Pripyat |
Changing rooms - football stadium |
Ferris wheel built for Mayday 1986 |
Children's coat hooks in the Kindergarten |
Kindergarten |
Inside the cooling tower |
Poster inside the school |
Labels:
Chernobyl. Pripyat,
disaster,
exclusion zone,
nuclear,
Ukraine
Thursday, 9 April 2015
Daphne’s Glove OR ‘The presence of Daphne’s absence’ OR ‘Traces of Daphne’…
This is a collective project I was asked to participate in many
months ago. I knew it would be difficult alongside everything else I have taken
on but it sounded exciting, it was flattering to be invited and the deadline was way off. The deadline is no
longer way off, in fact it is the end of this month and is galloping towards
me. The project will culminate in a joint exhibition with 11 other artists and
our, well their progress is documented
through social media so please look here... ‘A Group Gathering’
I have found it incredibly difficult to try and fit this project
in but I have been determined since the beginning to create something aesthetically pleasing at the very least. However, it has, I
admit, been much more difficult than I thought. And now it has come to
producing the final piece my
intentions are faltering again. Technically, I keep disappointing myself.
My thoughts and ideas have only slowly taken shape and evolved. I wanted to ‘suggest’
the absent wearer (Daphne), a trace of her if you will, hopefully to provoke a sentiment,
a connection, questions…
For my MA I have been researching memory; items left behind that
suggest past lives, then conversely objects that could/would be evocative but
are no longer there (physically) and trying to work out how to invent this
using fabric and thread.
After much experimentation into technique albeit based on a
different visual, I thought I had an excellent plan for Daphne’s glove. The
reality is though that great ideas rarely look so great when immediately put
into practice. So I struggle on…
I am working on a fabric piece, eventually using a somewhat
darker palette than I started with, suggesting/indicating that Daphne has
passed, though her femininity and (futile?)
attempts at ‘ladylike-ness’ remain.
Using screen printing techniques and a photographic, negative
image of the (opened) glove I have ‘removed’ the image from the fabric only
leaving an imprint of it, just as Daphne did on life.
Paper stencil + open screen |
The florals were printed using a stencil inspired
by a pattern on a piece of torn wallpaper I photographed in an abandoned
derelict house discovered in Cork, earlier this year – a room forgotten. I originally wanted
the piece to be faded, imperceptible, almost not there but growing with
vibrancy, detail and colour towards the ‘end’, that time when you no longer
care about what other people think or how they see you, caution to the wind and
all that.
Original colour thoughts |
However using the dark background means the discharged elements stand
out starker than I first wanted.
Discharged dye |
I could overdye the whole thing but I would
prefer the glove to stay white so I may
dip dye the lower part of the design to knock it back a little, although I really like the contrast. We shall see after I have slept on it. Then I
MUST start stitching! I sampled the domestic digital machine as it is all I
will have access to for a while but I do intend to also hand embroider…quickly!
Machine embroidered sample |
Labels:
a group gathering,
Daphne's glove,
embroidery,
screen printing,
stencil,
textiles
Thursday, 19 March 2015
Print-cess
These
are some of the prints I did at the weekend... there is one I love as
is (for now and not shown). There are 4 that have potential within a
collection (of what I'm not sure/worrying about) with more work; i.e.
more layers of print, perhaps some overdying and some embroidery. There
are also two that are awful and unresolvable.
Faded and worn detail |
But
as I am itching to get started on some design work I am just flinging
out initial ideas using 'materials', I'm sure whatever they finally turn
into will be a million miles away from these
samples. My own
suggestion to myself is that I aim for a collection of just beautiful
fabrics for now and worry about that or see where it goes later.
Discharge on Indigo, screenprint |
I think this has got something |
Tuesday, 3 March 2015
Scrap Exchange #collagecontest
detail - laser tree |
mine + Lani's |
just me |
It was a Facebook thing ran by Papirmass and Brown Paper Bag and there were some big collage names involved. It sounded really interesting and as I love collage and it sounded quite straightforward I decided to sign up. We would be matched with someone from anywhere in the world which was rather exciting and we would exchange scraps and then each/all make a collage combining our own bits and pieces and our partner's.
I duly received my match; living about 30 miles away!
I missed the deadline.
I've been so busy and by the time the scraps were exchanged (over Christmas!) it was not a good time. However and luckily I found that the deadline had been extended so breathing a sigh of relief, set to work. It didn't take too long when I finally got down to it... and I think the result is 'interesting' and it was fun. So...good times :-)
Now, what to do with it?!
It doesn't fit with my MA work (shown above) but that's the beauty of it I guess.
Now, on with the next deadline... coming soon.
Friday, 30 January 2015
Some Sketchbook Stuff...
I took a look at my (MA) sketchbook this week... I was worried
that my concept wasn't coming through in a focused enough way. I know why, and
it does generally. But I wanted to take my own advice and get the initial ideas
out of my head and down on paper (in order to let it later develop and
hopefully get more fabulous almost accidentally), so I could get on with
trying to visually communicate (perhaps through embroidery), what
the main point actually is.
It was fun and lovely and I intend to do (a lot) more this
weekend. This time I may even do some stitching. I am so excited about it at
the moment, slightly worried at the same time but this is what I love and if I
get to do what I love at least some of the time, how amazing is that? I am hoping I
am snowed in for at least a week.
Labels:
architecture,
art,
collage,
embroidery,
le pere lachaise,
Old Havana,
photography
Thursday, 8 January 2015
A blog from my other blog...about 'Contested Territories': Seaton Carew & Seacoaling
So
I've been busy.... sampling and trying to figure out my final
exhibition piece. The pressure is on as this will be the first piece of
work my MA peers will have ever seen of mine so obviously I want it to
look good BUT the piece of work itself is not assessed so... a quandary.
What IS being assessed is the 'writing' that goes with it, the
collaboration that has taken place, the resulting group exhibition and
the research (I guess.
As usual, it quickly
became clear that the idea in my head was not going to look as amazing as I
imagined, and that, almost as soon as I started sampling. I decided to work on
3 identical pieces of fabric - a medium weight linen which would support any
embellishments and still hang nicely, I dyed them all the same sandy
beige/taupe base colour (with coffee because it always works) in various
densities. Then I etched my illustrator drawing of the Hartlepool, Seaton
Carew, Teesside coastline - I wanted a clean crisp line and my thinking was
that it would not only be a hypothetical border but also a barrier - to the
indigo dye I intended to handpaint with... I hoped it would stop at the line, which
it actually did in a few tests. It was rather successful (until I washed it and
it frayed badly - but in a good way (image No. 5).
1. Etched Coastline |
2. Cut Coastline |
3. Etched then washed coastline |
A
little washed out, with neon pink Japanese braid pinpointing Seaton
Carew and Hartlepool, I then went for the Irish Machine, NOT for
quickness, really, but because I was aiming for the widest satin
stitch and layers of stitching for a lumpy effect (re. coal). As I
explained to my students who witnessed my swearing at the said Irish,
when they asked what I was doing, this is a 'fine art' outcome not a
'decorative' one :-)
4. Colour or Black & White? |
I managed to get a
silk chiffon digital print rushed through (though there was no silk organza
which is my preference). I had to try both colour and black & white, as
I am trying to produce 3 finals so I can choose the best one. I do prefer the
colour against the background. Notice I've laid some glass black beading along
my coastline on the right. Loving it. It says coal so well and not that
blatantly, mmm I might do a questionnaire about that - 'What do YOU think it
means?'
5. Etched, washed and stitched coastline |
I don't usually do messy... but hey I might!
6. Handpainted, stitched and beaded silk organza |
I would say this sample was my eureka moment, at the exact point that
I folded it up. Now this IS organza, it dyes so beautifully, coffee and
quink ink... then bleach - delicious and as transparent as you can get
without being clear vinyl/shower curtain or tulle. I think the way the
embroidered rivulet band of coal (!) and loose threads can still be seen
through the layers and how they are partially obscured, to be very apt And
then, depending on the way the light hits, you catch a glimmer, a
sparkle of the beads - like hidden treasure just under the surface,
which is exactly what sea coal was to those who collected it.
7. Organza Detail |
So I did have three
linen pieces, two of which are now cut up as samples though one is
still my back up plan. I also now have a clear idea of how I will
produce THE final. Fingers crossed X
Labels:
barriers,
beading,
Coast line,
contested territories,
cut,
etch,
evaluation,
hand dying,
Hartlepool,
hidden,
Indigo,
Irish machine,
laser,
machine embroidery,
maps,
sea coal,
Seaham,
threads
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